20th May 2009
I know y’all have had those days, whether your a mom or not, THOSE days. Not even the worst days, because they’re almost easier to put words to. But the days when things are ok, but hard. Days when you just feel like you’re letting everyone down. Today’s been one of those days.
It’s 11:30 pm, and as I was about to fall into bed, aching from moving and cleaning a fridge yesterday, I couldn’t help but fall to my knees in tears at the side of the bed. One of those days where you manage, but barely, and not with any semblance of grace. You feel like you could have been a better mom, a better wife, a better friend. You feel like you aren’t doing anything well… the house is a mess, the fridge is unorganized, you could do so much better at managing money, walking in the Fruit of the Spirit, keeping up with the laundry. You could play with the kids more, snap at them a little less, have more patience with your husband. The best intentions of the day got taken over by distractions and necessity. You know that you could have found quiet and rest in the Word, and you fully intended to first thing in the morning when your spirit most needed to be grounded in Him but the day just got away… and now you feel like you’re letting your Heavenly Father down most of all.
And so the tears fall and the only prayer is for His grace. Thankfully, blessedly, His Word sweeps into your soul…”My grace is sufficient for you. My Power is made perfect in your weakness, child.” Tomorrow, dear Lord. Thank you that your mercies are new every morning…
*I’ve turned the comments off because I mostly wrote this for myself, obviously. I didn’t write it for any encouraging words, though I’m sure you would have plenty. But I wrote it because I know you’ve been or will be there, and His glorious grace can speak to all of us.